Hello All, ♥️
Many of you know about the big changes coming for me over the next few weeks.
Seeing that the poem below was scheduled for this week really hit me. I still remember how I felt when I wrote it nearly a year ago.
So, I’ll just let it speak for itself.
Love,
Shiny ✨
The Name of This Chapter June 14 Tomorrow is probably the last day we will still be officially married. I have spent the day thinking of you. of you waking up from a nap on the beach I would keep one eye open and run my fingers gently across your back of you seeing that sea turtle in the ocean and running to get me so I could swim with it of you dancing to the music of some dumb commercial swinging your hips and laughing just so I would laugh too of you staying up all night to bake our wedding cake from scratch with no training of you cleaning off the rotted roots of the fig tree because it was the only plant we brought back from California of you waiting in bed for a cup of coffee and begging me to stay of you of you of you and that it’s time to say goodbye now. It’s time to let our marriage go. I wanted to love you for my whole life, and I know you wanted to love me your whole life, too. I am so angry that it won’t be true. We may love each other, but from afar, and differently. After all this time, this loss is still absolutely devastating. I’ve had to let you, the dog, our marriage, our life, our dreams, go, in pieces, slowly, methodically, backwards and forwards, grief and anger and resentment, and loss after loss after loss, and now, I’m really seeing it. Our memories are playing before my eyes, and I know that we don’t belong to each other anymore. This chapter of both of our lives is over. “What’s the name of this chapter?” we used to say, when we started a new adventure, moved, or made a big change. What’s the name of this chapter? The name of this chapter is The End.